Finding Birth Parents

Well I have had some time to let the first “Visit” digest, I’ve cleared my head a little, and have come to realize I am now an “official birth mother“. I still can’t believe my adopted out son is in my life now. This all seems to be a dream.

I was looking at some pictures that were taken at the time of his visit and there is one with my other three children and him.
When I look at mine and my husband’s children I get a kind of warmth, I guess from having raised such wonderful people. Then when I look at “him” I feel a kind of failure on my part. I let him go off and grow up without me. His adoptive parents were very good to him and he had more chances than I could ever have given him, but that has little effect on how I feel. It’s really a paradox I am sure most birth mothers find themselves in…I am so happy he has had a wonderful childhood and has turned out to be a great guy, but I am still struggling with the fact that I was not a part of all that. But, on the bright side, I will be in his life from now on…and that is pretty awesome.

If you are still on the fence about trying to find your birth parents or adopted out child I recommend that you go for it. Don’t wait. You never know how much time you will have left and why not share it with that beautiful baby you gave life to, or your birth mother and/or father. It’s a chapter in your life that can be closed or opened up to an amazing new story line. You have nothing more to lose but all the doubts you have had through the years. You’ve already missed out on so much. It’s okay to be nervous, but don’t let imagined fears hold you back. And for all you birth mothers out there wondering about your adopted out child, JUST…GO…FOR…IT!